pRinCeSs iKary

2006-03-26T17:56:00.000-08:00

Major Stressor

Sigh, as this last two weeks of the school year approaches the stress in my body widens and spreads. It chills my inner mind and keeps me irritated.

whoops! the week's are getting longer than ever. As usual, I get to have as many bad-hair-day as ever. Being stressed is like a nightmare to me. I hate what it does to my life. It ruins my effective daily routine of making myself look better. argh!

damn isn't it?
oh well, last week it was kind of an adventure. Imagine, I rode my first public bus ride! haha! i was so scared as ever. Commuting isn't really my thing. three words to describe it... I HATE IT. haha! Oh well, back to the bus thingy. When I wa there I was so keen of my surroundings. I mean I had to be alert. It was my first time and I don't know what's happening. haha! I was sittin' then when a man from the outside came up to me and my gal and shouted "mani" I was so shocked! I never thought that some vendors would go up the bus and sell some things like nuts... sigh. There was also this man who grabbed the back of my sit and it made a huge sound which made me grasp the arm of my pal.

Fnny how the whole ride went cause I'm like the coward girl who came to have her first public bus ride.

haha!

2006-03-09T01:34:00.000-08:00

Hi ya'LL

Sigh. Life's great! Haha!

Oh well, oh well...

I have something to share...

Just early this week, I have been talking to some friends of mine outside the school and we've been reminiscing about how good and bad highschool experiences are.

My bestfriend from Trinity complains about his grades... haha!

oh well...

Last Monday...

I was in the community for NSTP II..
It was a nice feeling again to be back in such surrounding...
The last time I was doing those things was back in St. Bridget... where we had reach-out as a part of our B1( our version of the highschool usual cadet thingy)...

I was so touched when this little girl 5 years of age (approximately), approached me and held me skirt. She said "hello ate, gOodmorning po..." waving while smiling... aaw! isn't she cute?! that reminds me more of how i love children specially infants til 4 years old... although that girl seems to be of 5 years... she's still cute... and i loved it!

During our assessment, we went to the grade2 department and they were so cute... that exposed me to a lot of things... reminds me of my childhood...

haha! that's it! enjoy!

2006-02-25T04:43:00.000-08:00

A few questions that I need to know How you could ever hurt me so I need to know what i've done wrong And how long it's been going on Was it that I never paid enough attention Or did I not give enough affection Not only will your answers keep me sane But i'll know never to make the same mistake again You can tell me to my face Or even on the phone You can write it in a letter Either way i've have to know Did I never treat you right Did I always start the fight Either way i'm going out of my mind All the answers to my questions I have to find
My head's spinnin' Boy i'm in a daze I feel isolated Don't wanna communicate I take a shower I will scour I will roam To find peace of mind The happy mind I once owned yeah
Flexing vocabulary runs right through me The alphabet runs right from a to zee Conversations, hesatations in my mind You got my conscience Asking questions that I can't find I'm not crazy I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong, no I'm just waiting cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long
chorus Never ever have I ever felt so low When you gonna take me out of this black hole Never ever have I ever felt so sad The way i'm feeling yeah you got me feeling really Never ever have I had to find I've had to dig away to find my own piece of mind I've never ever had my conscience to fight The way i'm feeling yeah it just don't feel right
I'll keep searching Deep within my soul For all the answers Don't wanna hurt no more I need peace gotta feel at ease Need to be Free from pain Go insane My heart aches yeah
Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head The alphabet runs right from a to zed Conversations, hesatations in my mind You got my concience asking questions that i can't find I'm not crazy I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong Now i'm just awaiting cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long
chorus x3
You can tell me to my face You can tell me on the phone Oooh you can write it in a letter babe Cos I really need to know You can write it in a letter babe You can write in in a letter babe(fade)

2006-02-24T17:38:00.000-08:00

whew! I'll tell you what? WE have had a retreat last Feb. 10-12. WOah! It was the lamest retreat that I've ever been to. Darn.

For the past 5 years of my school life I've been going to retreats annually. My highschool alma Mater was a Catholic and was held by nuns and so we have this annual retreat. But those retreats were greatest!

I think the mere thing that made our retreat silly is because the 4 sections of the freshmen were mixed. I don't know, well maybe because they're trying to put a bond between sections. Not that I'm on a contrast but it really didn't work out not even close.

If they want it that way I prefer them to do some other things for bonding of classes but not retreat. Uh-uh! no-no!

It would've worked out pretty good if they held it per section because at least we would be more comfortable and laid-back.

What's worse is their way of holding a retreat. My past experiences is a loOoOoooOOOOooT different from this one.

It kills me.

2006-02-24T17:22:00.000-08:00

sigh. this week have been stressful... haha! not to mention hyper and happy! oh well, I've been watching some movies and that includes The Terminal, Beauty Shop, New York Minute, Chasing Liberty and Prince and Me. I love movies very much because I get a lot of sight about the different culture and stuffs. Like for example in the movie Beauty Shop, in this movie I have seen the real discrimination between white and black Americans. They can't even last a day wihout teasing each other in some ways. But of course not all of them do this discrimination and stuff. In real life, probably there would be such thing as color discrimination but I think it's really unhealthy. Our world have been so tired of quarrels... so why add on it?

sigh. oh well, you see, all my life I have had this certain passion for acting. During my highschool days I was in an acting club. We make mid-year and annual plays. I have portrayed the roles of men. Why? Because a man's acting is easier to portray for me, well not that I'm boyish or something.
sigh. wrap it up! acting is fun!

2006-02-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

haai.. this was taken last feb05'06.. ayan ha?! as i've told you... ayan nipOst ko na yung piCture namen nun beaR na nibigay mo... haha! wala pa namE eh.. haha! oh well sooner or later may name na yan.. iisip muna ako... oh well... pagaling ka na... aasar ako kasi nagpapaulan ka tapos.. nagco-complain ka... basta dont forget to take care of yourself as iive told you before... kaya ka nagkakasakit eh... tapos you'll brag about what you're feeling... haai... sige tutuh!! gUa Ya Sui! haha! yan lang alam ko eh... haha!

2006-02-04T22:13:00.000-08:00

as he says...
the story goes...

it goes never ending... and it gives us strength like what should happen... cutee craig david is really hot...

2006-02-04T21:46:00.000-08:00

some baby pic haha! sobrang innocent noh?! haha! ang cute co.. ampula2... parang nagdudugo.. ang dark skinned ko tuloy tignan.. haha.
as a babay i was so damn masungit daw eh...
sometimes tuloy pag the people around me tells me that im this, im that before nong bata ako... haha! i make fun of myself kasi sobrang nakakahiya...

2006-02-04T21:39:00.000-08:00

haai... fantastic threesome noh?! they're both hottie!
these two were those two na... haha! wala lang..basta they have made my life different... especially the guy on the rightside,,, haha! ayan ha! special ka pa ha?! wek.. haha! basta! thanks for your effort ha?! i appreciate it everyday.. haha! friends.. meet mard! the guy na... behlat! haha! only if you're here... pasaway ka kasi eh... basta tcee lagi ha?!..

2006-02-04T21:31:00.000-08:00

here he is! the guy that i'd definitely marry... in any condition,,,
haai... he's so adorable.. isn't he?! crappy... friends and folks,,, meet.. my hubby-to-be... adorable and cuddly ayt?! i fall for him!!! haha!

2006-02-04T21:29:00.000-08:00

haha! this was my vanity pic.. i took it myself... on my way to my training.. haha! vanity alert!

2006-02-04T21:22:00.000-08:00

this was taken at the national library last dec8'05.. haha! not that im a bookworm or something.. we just dropped-by to do a research.. haha!

2006-02-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

sAIkO!

aSking why?!?! hmm.. maybe because my favorite shOw have just ended this night... haai... pero at least i got to see jillian haPpY... i would want the same thing to happen to me... i'd love that!

I hope one day as i wake up one TJ haHn would call me and say goodmorning and tell me how he really loves me... how i wish...

'cause you see,, guys nowadays are really unpredictable... and you can even rarely find guys who'll love you the way you want them to...

But gals i prefer that you love yourself first.. 'cause once you really have that self-love.. it's really gonna be great! and bOys would be ashamed enough not to reach that same level of love you give yourself.. and that gives them challenge... and they love that! your life's gonna change... it's proven by yours truly... i have found that to be true...

before i don't even try to love myself... okay yes! i love me.. but not enough to call it love for self... and just this past months i tried to make myself improve and tried to be happy without owing my own happiness to others.. even my friends... i tried to be happy just by being me!! it works! actually it's more of the feeling of satisfaction!! in japanese word... SAIKO and i can really say... THAT"S THE KEY TO HAPPINESS GIRL!!!

I've been inlove... i'm not ashamed of that because i know that im human,,, and definitely yes! human fall inlove!

I really love the way the series ONLY YOU went... it was fantastic... and i love TJ(Cho Hyeon-Jae)... i would love him, or probably a person with his resemblance to be my huBbY!! and if only all the guys in this shitty world would be like him... i think all the women would be more likely to be happy and contented...

Happily ever after... that's how things end in usual series and fairytales... but is that phrase applicable for our world today?! i don't think so... 'cause even girls have their fault... haai... sana every mankind would consider loving loving truthfully knowing the consequences... actually everybody have their own perception of love and has their way to describe it... but i'll tell you what?! only few can express the true meaning of love with the exception of motherly love.. (which i consider,, the most wonderful kind of love)... i don't even know if i can...

infact even the people around me can't do that... i think love does really comes with pain and sacrifice!! and that's what exactly happened in ONLY YOU... they went to so many trials and gave up things most especially their prides!!! (which we all have to learn) just to be with each other... i think the story really pertains to what LOVE really is...

if time comes that i'll be loving a certain person i would want that person to be more like TJ!!!

like what pRIncess aUroRA said... "soMEday... pRince will come..." that's what we all have to sing.. haha! dont look for love.. let it find you and there comes the real happiness... SAIKO NA KOTO GA ZETTAI NI NARERU!

2006-02-03T02:25:00.000-08:00

haha!! yesterday pa to eh... haha! ndi ko napost..

tOday's kinda funnY.. haha!Ü
fUnny how it went all day... laugh trip withGenesis aNN maRie StephaniE Uy...Ü mOrning plang ang coolEt na namen... we were seatmates xe and then we had this very long seatwork.. as we were putting our whole attention to that long "paperwoRk" for the day.. haha! pHanee made this really weird "hirits" that really made me burst into laughter! hahah!
She was so weird! haha! like one moment people were siryosO na,, pero bigla nalang namen xa makikita... haha ang kulit!
then lunch came... haha! we ate sa KFC... surprisingly i ate my fave for the first time in two months! Go-go caesar!Ü anyways, ayun nga.. then we were eating.. tpos,, we so love the gravy xe.. tpos may girl na naka "bath robe" haha! laughing trip nman kme... haha!
Knowing my group we so love to play cards... we play anywhere we want to... believe it or not.. mga ilang beses na rin yata kme nasita sa mga places that we've been to... even sa school... kahapon lang napagalitan kami nung guard! hahahah!Ü

we played UNO cards knna sa KFC... at dahil really seldom na namin talaga makasama tong si pHanee.. wahaha! pinagtripan namin... ang kulit kasi niyang kulitin... woek..Ü pinagkakaisahan namin para lang matalo... haha! wierd! poor phanee...
tPos knna,,, out of the blue,,, i have just fixed a jingl for pHanee... it goes like this pa nga eh... * aNn Marie.. marie.. marie... marie... marie.... marie.. marie.. stephaNie...* singing in on of those melodies i hear usually when i go to some amusement center like WOF sa cubao... dati when i was young... don sa mga merry-go-round thingies... katawa talaga... haha!
and then all of sudden Lydia, a friend of mine got LSS to the jingle,,, and she was singin' it out loud... haha! she even changed some lyrics.. oopS! sensored... haha!

oh well... isa pang thing... it was our sOcio-anthro after lunch... haai... we had this activities and one of them is to like group ourselves according to what we've done to the other activity... haha! diad lang kami... because wala lang.. eh dalawa lang eh... paki ba! aion nga...
pero ang talagang hinihintay ko eh ung PE!!! haha! i so love to have PE... i love what we're doing kasi... guess what??! we're dancing the swing.. and it feels so good dancing... stress relieving... sARaP! as in... try it... haha!Ü oh well... my dancing partner is Cyd,, we're the greatest pair ever.. well, at least for us... haha! but we love it so much... not to mention,, we're MAGALING... haha! yabAng pLa..

aion tpos,, we had computer classes... haai..peste! we had to research about that internet thingy... pero ok lang... it was cool naman in my cOmputer's place eh...Ü
tPOs my phone was lobatt non kaya wla ako mareceive na texts... haai...
when i got home,,, i charged my phone.. then received my msgs... haai... leche! puro quotes! pero okay lang at least somebody remembered the prinCesS...

then aion... tumawag si jheng... she was in Mega daw. with Piolo Pascual's niece,, Nikki(eX daw oh! haha.. c love niya un noh! haha!Ü) and some other friends..

sira talaga un... she made me talk to piolo's niece... haha! then,, she told me that jHeng is BABAERO.. haha! seems like.. hahaha! joke lang po! peace tayo huh! tpos.. sbe niya "ah basta,, love ka ni Jheng tapos..." parang ako... ???????? ???????? hahaha! alam naman niya un eh... di talaga ako naniniwala noh! hahahahaah! anyways...

Gabi na im so excited na! kasi manonooD na ko ulit ng ONLY YOU..... crappY! adDicted na ako really,, kasi naman the guy there is sOOOOOOOOO damn gwapo!!!! he's the "IT" thing.. he's face is simple.. but is so extraordinary and lovable!!!Ü he's personality in that certain soap is what i look for a guy.... not to expressive.. but you would really see in his eyes that he do love you soooooooooo much! and plus he would give up everything for you... haaaii... sigh! adn plus,,, jillian and his relationship is really my ideal one.... like those of Dao Ming Su and San Chai's relationship... not too mushy... haha! kakasuka kasi pag over na! hahaha! haai... i want a guy like that! Cho Hyeon-Jae... I love him... as in sobra... as in if he ask me to marry him this moment or anytime... i would really say YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
i fall for him... woah! wait girl it's too much! haha! maybe im already getting into your nerves but haha! i hope... wala lang... oi at least meron na yata ako nasulat dito na malalim na Filipino... woek!Ü oh well.. this was my longest entry so far... hope you won't get bored... haha!

2006-02-02T04:27:00.000-08:00

HAVE ANY NICKNAMES?
-> iKary, aikEE, aiKa, mEe, mikAh
WHAT IS YOUR Middle name?
-> dacanay
FAVORITE BREAKFAST IS
-> soft boiled egg, cereal(frosties)
THE MOVIE I'VE WATCHED MOST NUMBER OF TIMES IS
-> model behavior
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
--> just like heaven---yuck im so outta date!
LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL..
---> socio- anthro
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY CAR IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE
--> the recent porsche
FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE?
---> i don't do any of those.. haha! we have helper
WHEN I WAS A KID I DREAMED OF BECOMING..
---> doctor
FAVORITE COLOR/s?
---> pink, white, green
FAVORITE PERFORMER(S)
---> usher, nsync, billy crawford, sam milby, destiny's child, madonna
WHEN I DIE, I'D RATHER BE CREMATED OR BURIED?
---> cremated i think.. although i hate those bone grater thingy..
IF I COULD REPEAT COLLEGE, I'D TAKE..
---> fashion designing
3 THINGS I CAN'T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
---> lip gloss, money, alcohol, phone, powder
FIRST THING I WOULD BUY WITH MY FIRST SALARY..
---> i dont know yet...
I'D LIKE TO BE REMEMBERED AS
---> someone who's so girl and so magnificent
FAVORITE HANG-OUT?
---> bowling alley,,my room
WHAT'S ON YOUR SCREEN SAVER?
---> yaEl's pic and me
FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
---> sCrabble and millionnaire
WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
---> updated my blog...
LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
---> jHengÜ
LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU?
---> hazel Gu
LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH/SMILE?
---> geNesis Anne mArie Stephanie
LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY?
---> Kurt haha!
THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
---> tagal na rin non... i'll try to cry now.. haha!Ü
WHY DID YOU CRY? ....
---> i dont know...Ü maybe because sobrang nabadtrip na ko..
LAST PERSON YOU'RE WITH?
---> cyd.. my tin-ai...
LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
---> phone? as in cellphone? ayt now im talking to jheNg...
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
---> paRa sa'yO parokya ni edgar
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
---> pInk... pink... pink... and lastly PINK!!!!!!!!!
ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
---> if they were somebody close to me,,, not really,,, esp girls... but guys?? hmm.. c bernard lang yata and my bestfriend gelo ung kaya ko...
DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING?
---> hAppY eNdiNg.. kaya nga princess and they live happily ever after..
WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY?
---> mOoDy
WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY?
---> a true friend
ARE YOU HAPPY?
---> oF cOurse!!!Ü

2006-01-30T04:29:00.000-08:00

BlOoDy hELL

ha! This Day had been... hmmm,,, let's see... it's been... bloody crap! haha!

It all started just fine and so right... but when classes had started... i don't know why.. but it had turned out to be like most saturdays... yucky and undesirable saturdays of my college life..

our enGlish midterms paper were given back... and guess what?! i've got the shittest enGlish score in my entire life... especially with the teacher... Boy! do i hate it!

It was our philo class when those papers were given... sigh! i was so damn pissed off... dammiT!

oh well, another thing is that I have this blockmate... whom I really am afraid of... but i don't know why?!?!?! don't dare asking me.. cause iLL be asking the same question.. haha!

he makes this weird creepy look that'll make you raise gooseBumps... oh no! don't get me wrong But i am really getting absurd...

I made some adjustments when i first saw him... like i ignored being uneasy with him... but it turned out worst! and made me even more afraid of him..

Like what he just did in our class today...

he went out of the room,,, us knowing that he just went to the leiu or something but it took him almost an hour.. so my prof. asked my good friend efFie to look for him... and so they came back... our class ended when they came in.. he told my prOf that he'd been at the second floor's MISD.. we were like HUH?!?!?! are you nutS! during a class you'd go somewhere?!?!

i feel pity on him,,, i think he's got an attitude problem... but it's quite that much to say... without me knowing him better... but do i have to?! no!!! i can't,, i'd really die... haha! better not to talk about it anymore...

oh well... my unlimited load expired last night and i haven't loaded yet! haha! goodluck to those people texting me and waiting for my royal reply... im sorry guys! i'm quite undergoing my self-discipline again...

i just wanted to balance my time...

anyways i have had 2 missed calls... it was both from the same person... Jheng... my phone's on silent mode xe eh... oh well gotta go!

2006-01-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

happy shalala! haha... sigh! it's just nice being this happy without needing anybody to make you damn happy!
i have missed this life of happiness... i'm so glad to tell ya'll that finally im back to my real jolly self!
life's full of ups and downs...
this is how it is..
i've realized so many things...
you can't be happy if you won't ;et yourself be happy...
just know when exactly to let go of things that is important to you and you'll see the brightness behind each tear or sadness you've burst into...
i'm loving life... loving and joyfully living it...
being a happy person as i am... ha! you think you can mess around me?! oh no! you don't know me yet...
'cause once you've messed me... i'm gonna be improving myself to the limits and make you feel sorry once you set a sight on me.. haha!
i'm not gonna turn unto you and mess you just the wayyou made a fool out of me... but instead... i'll make you eat your own words...
i'm not like any other girls... although yes! i cry.. but after that! crap the heck! that's totally past! haha!
oh well.. that's not that important.. what's great is that i'm good.. doing certainly perfect! haha... here's a song that makes me feel... lucky...
NATALIE (f/ Justin Roman) LYRICS
Where Are You

[Justin](I know you are out there baby...somewhere)There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insaneHow does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?Does she even realize I'm here?Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?Dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)
[Natalie]I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)Praying that he will walk in my lifeWhere is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeahI'll wait forever, how silly it seemsHow does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I'm here?Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?Dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)
[Justin]There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)
[Natalie]How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I'm here?
[Justin]Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
[Natalie]Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
[Together]Dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)Dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada
[Justin Talking]Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby'Cuz I know you are out thereI know this might sound crazy, but I think I love youDadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadadaDadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada
Where are you??
my nstp take hime long quiz is driving me imaginary... haha! my imaginattion sets it's next destination in Utah and New York... haha! oh well.. today's a great one... especially on my way to the church.. haha!

haaah... that song really takes me high...oh well.. i'm not inlove but i'm so damn happy with how my life's showing up... get groovy friend! have a life! live fully... love?! later! haha! it can wait... if it can't.. duh! it's not love.. it's infatuation... peace out!
don't let anybody take superior of your own happiness...

2006-01-20T03:21:00.002-08:00

oh goSh! im sOoOO hapPy,,, i didn't thought na Kris was the one i saw a while ago right after my bowling training... i even thought it was just a cousin of his... shockS! he's cHanged a lot! as in literally a lot... i've never imagined him to be that,,, even in my dreams... i wonder what happened... it was only few months ago since i saw him last... shOckS! i hope he's doing good...i didn't had the chance to talk to him... sad mode... oh well, i didn't recognize him din kasi eh... i miss him literally speaking... aaw..Ü although im happy he looks fine! gosh about my day... it started fine then late morning it was busted!!!! i hated this day... here's what happened... i drove our car to fetch my sister, but before i go there i dropped my mom to the nearby grocery. Then, went to my sister's school. but when i got there... the worst of the worst parking look was there right in front of me, that i can't even enter the school... so, i was in the gate... but then, those cars behind me was almost yelling at me,,, i even saw the guy very angry so i did what i thought was right, to move. i just dont want to argue with drivers... but my dad started his nagging! and that have stressed me out! totally even inside my bones! argh! so,,, as i got home... i still am very irritated! oh well... i took a bath and then got ready for my training... my training turned out so fine... the best so far among my training days.. 4 sets - 99,93,85,96... the average was 93... good ayt?!Ü im happy! plus i saw Kris... the crush of my life,,,, what a day! ended just the best!

2006-01-19T22:02:00.000-08:00

sigh. iVe got this feeling of excitement and nervousness inside and out... the pressure of the intrums is rushing through my blood! haha!Ü oh well.. ive got to go! got a training.. jeff.. texted me na.. he's early...